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  “Where’s the patient?”

  “Still in the OR, but she’ll be out shortly.”

  “Name?”

  “Kristin Overmeyer.”

  “Did she come alone?” Kurt asked as he wrote Kristin’s name down.

  “No. She came by car with a friend named Rebecca Corey. Dr. Donaldson said she’s in the main waiting room.”

  “Make of the car?”

  “I have no idea,” Paul admitted.

  “We’ll find out,” Kurt said. He raised his steely blue eyes to meet Paul’s.

  “This is what we hired you people for,” Paul stated tersely. “I want you to handle it, and I don’t want to know anything.”

  “No problem,” Kurt said. He laid his pen down carefully as if it were fragile.

  For a moment the two men stared at each other. Then Paul stood up, turned, and disappeared out into the gusty April morning.

  OCTOBER 8, 1999

  11:15 P.M.

  SO LET ME GET THIS

  straight,” Joanna Meissner said to Carlton Williams. The two friends were sitting in the dark inside Carlton’s Jeep Cherokee in a no-parking zone on Craigie Street alongside the Craigie Arms apartment building in Cambridge, Massachusetts. “You’ve decided that it would be best for us to wait to be married until after you finish your surgical residency some three or four years from now.”

  “I haven’t decided anything,” Carlton said defensively. “We’re having a discussion here.”

  Joanna and Carlton had been out to dinner in Harvard Square that Friday evening and had been enjoying themselves until Joanna had brought up the sore subject of their long-term plans. As usual, from that moment on, the tone of the conversation had deteriorated. They had been over this thorny issue many times in the past as a consequence of their engagement. Theirs was a quintessentially long affair; they had known each other since kindergarten and had been dating each other exclusively since the ninth grade.

  “Listen,” Carlton said soothingly. “I’m just trying to think of what’s best for both of us.”

  “Oh, bull!” Joanna blurted. Despite her vow to herself to stay calm, she could feel anger brewing in her gut as if she were a nuclear reactor about to go critical.

  “I’m serious,” Carlton said. “Joanna, I’m working my tail off. You know how often I’m on call. You know the hours. Being a resident at the MGH is a hell of a lot more demanding than I’d ever guessed.”

  “What difference does that make?” Joanna snapped, unable to keep the irritation she felt from being painfully obvious. She couldn’t help feeling betrayed and rejected.

  “It makes a lot of difference,” Carlton persisted. “I’m exhausted. I’m no fun to be with. I can’t have a normal conversation outside of what’s going on in the hospital. It’s pathetic. I don’t even know what’s happening in Boston, much less the world.”

  “That kind of comment might have some validity if we were dating casually. But the fact of the matter is we’ve been seeing each other for eleven years. And up until I broached this delicate issue of setting a date tonight, you were enjoying yourself, and you were perfectly fun to be with.”

  “I certainly love seeing you . . .” Carlton said.

  “That’s reassuring,” Joanna interjected sarcastically. “What I find particularly ironic about this situation is that you’re the one who asked me to marry you, not vice versa. The trouble is, that was seven years ago. I’d say that suggests your ardor has significantly cooled.”

  “It hasn’t,” Carlton protested. “I do want to marry you.”

  “I’m sorry, but you’re not convincing. Not after all this time. First you wanted to graduate from college. That was fine. No problem. I thought that was appropriate. Then you thought you should just get through the first two years of medical school. Even that was okay with me since I could get most of my Ph.D. coursework out of the way. But then you thought it best to put things off until you got yourself all the way through medical school. Are you detecting a pattern here or is it just me? Then the issue became getting the first year of residency behind you. Stupid me even accepted that, but now it’s the whole residency business. What about the fellowship deal you talked about last month? And then after that you might even think it best to wait while you set up your practice.”

  “I’m trying to be rational about this,” Carlton said. “It’s a difficult decision, and it behooves us to weigh the pros and cons . . .”

  Joanna was no longer listening. Instead her emerald-green eyes wandered away from the face of her fiance who, she recognized, wasn’t even looking at her as he spoke. In fact, he’d avoided looking at her throughout this conversation; as far as she could tell, he’d only intermittently met her glare during her monologue. With unseeing eyes she stared straight ahead into the middle distance. All at once it was as if she had been slapped across the face by an invisible hand. Carlton’s suggestion of yet another delay in setting a marriage date had spawned an epiphany, and she found herself laughing, not out of humor but disbelief.

  Carlton halted in midsentence while enumerating the pros and the cons of getting married sooner rather than later.

  “What are you laughing about?” he asked. He raised his eyes from watching himself fumble with the ignition keys and gazed at Joanna in the car’s dim interior. Her face was silhouetted against the dark side window by a distant streetlamp whose light fingered its way through the windshield. Her sleek and delicate profile was limned by her lustrous flaxen hair, which appeared to glow in the half light. Diamond-like flashes glistened from her starkly white teeth just visible through her slightly parted, full lips. To Carlton, she was the most beautiful woman in the world even when she was badgering him.

  Ignoring Carlton’s question, Joanna continued her soft, mirthless laugh as the clarity of her revelation sharpened. Precipitously, she’d come to acknowledge the validity of what her roommate Deborah Cochrane and her other female friends had been hawking all along, namely that marriage in and of itself should not be her life’s goal. They’d been right after all: she’d been programmed by the totality of her suburban Houston upbringing. Joanna couldn’t believe she’d been so stupid for so long and so resistant to question a value system she’d so blindly accepted. Thankfully, while treading water waiting for Carlton, she’d been smart enough to lay the foundation of a rewarding career. She was only a thesis away from a Ph.D. from Harvard in economics combined with extensive computer skills.

  “What are you laughing about?” Carlton persisted. “Come on! Talk to me!”

  “I’m laughing at me,” Joanna said finally. She turned to look at her fiancé. He appeared perplexed, with his brows tightly knit.

  “I don’t understand,” Carlton said.

  “That’s curious,” Joanna said. “I see everything rather clearly.”

  She glanced down at the engagement ring on her left hand. The diamond solitaire sucked in the weak available light and threw it back at Joanna with surprising intensity. The stone had been Carl-ton’s grandmother’s, and Joanna had been thrilled with it, mostly because of its sentimental value. But now it seemed like a vulgar neon reminder of her own gullibility.

  A sudden sense of claustrophobia gripped Joanna. Without any warning she unlatched the door, slid out, and stood up on the curb.

  “Joanna!” Carlton called. He leaned across the car’s center console and peered up into Joanna’s face. Her expression was one of fierce resolve. Her usually soft lips were set in grim determination.

  Carlton started to ask Joanna what was the matter, although he knew all too well. Before he could even get the sentence out, the car door slammed in his face. Pushing himself back upright, he groped for the passenger-side window button. When the window opened, Joanna leaned in. Her expression hadn’t changed.

  “Don’t insult me by asking what’s the matter,” she said.

  “You’re not being very adult about this,” Carlton stated firmly.

  “Thank you for your unbiased assessment,” Joann
a retorted. “I also want to thank you for making everything so clear for me. It certainly makes it easier to make up my mind.”

  “Make up your mind about what?” Carlton asked. The newly found firmness of his voice vanished. In its place was a definite quaver. He had a premonition about what was coming, and it was accompanied by a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach.

  “About my future,” Joanna said. “Here!” She extended her clenched fist with the obvious intention of giving something to Carlton.

  Carlton reached out hesitantly with a cupped palm. He felt something cold drop into his hand. Glancing down, he found himself staring at his grandmother’s diamond.

  “What’s this all about?” Carlton stammered.

  “I think it’s pretty clear,” Joanna said. “Consider yourself free to finish your residency and whatever else your little heart desires. I certainly don’t want to think of myself as a drag.”

  “You’re not serious?” Carlton questioned. Caught completely off guard by this sudden turn of events, he was befuddled.

  “Oh, but I am,” Joanna said. “Consider our engagement officially over. Good night, Carlton.”

  Joanna turned and walked back along Craigie Street toward Concord Avenue and the entrance to the Craigie Arms. Her apartment was on the third floor.

  After a brief struggle with the door release Carlton leaped from his Cherokee and ran after Joanna, who’d already reached the corner. A few deep red maple leaves, which had fallen from the tree that very day, wafted in his wake. He caught up to his former fiancee as she was about to enter her apartment building. He was out of breath. He was clutching the engagement ring in his fist.

  “All right,” Carlton managed. “You’ve made your point. Here, take the ring back.” He extended his hand.

  Joanna shook her head. Her grim determination had disappeared. In its place was a tenuous smile. “I didn’t give the ring back as a mere gesture or machination. Nor am I actually angry. You obviously don’t want to get married now, and all at once, I don’t either. Let’s give it a rest. We’re still friends.”

  “But I love you,” Carlton blurted.

  “I’m flattered,” Joanna said. “And I suppose I still love you, but things have been dragging on for too long. Let’s go our separate ways, at least for now.”

  “But . . .”

  “Good night, Carlton,” Joanna said. She pushed herself up onto her tiptoes and gave Carlton’s cheek a brush with her lips. A moment later she was in the elevator. She hadn’t looked back.

  Putting her key in her apartment door she noticed she was trembling. Despite her airy dismissal of Carlton, she felt her emotions rumbling just below the surface.

  “Wow!” her roommate Deborah Cochrane exclaimed. She checked the task bar on her computer to see the time. “Rather early for a Friday night. Wussup?” Deborah was dressed in oversized Harvard-emblazoned sweats. In comparison with the soft, porcelain femininity of her roommate, she was mildly tomboyish with short dark hair, a Mediterranean olive complexion, and an athletic build. Her facial features contributed by being stronger and more rounded than Joanna’s yet no less feminine. All in all, the roommates complemented each other and emphasized each other’s natural attractiveness.

  Joanna didn’t respond as she hung up her coat in the hall closet. Deborah watched her closely as she came into their sparsely furnished living room and collapsed on the couch. She tucked her feet under herself and only then met Deborah’s inquisitive eyes.

  “Don’t tell me you guys had a fight,” Deborah said.

  “Not a fight per se,” Joanna said. “Just a parting of ways.”

  Deborah’s jaw dropped. For the six years she’d known Joanna, from freshman orientation onward, Carlton had been a fixture in Joanna’s life. As far as she was concerned there’d not been the slightest hint of discord within the relationship. “What happened?” she asked with astonishment.

  “I suddenly saw the light,” Joanna said. There was a slight trill to her voice that Deborah noticed instantly. “My engagement is off, and, more importantly, I’m not going to count on getting married, period. If it happens, fine, but if it doesn’t, that’s okay too.”

  “My word!” Deborah said, unable to keep the glee from her voice. “This doesn’t sound like the ‘butter cream frosting, silky bridesmaids’ dresses’ girl that I’ve come to love. Why the change of heart?” Deborah considered Joanna’s march toward marriage almost religious in its unswerving intensity.

  “Carlton wanted to postpone the wedding until after his residency,” Joanna said. In short order, she recounted the last fifteen minutes of her date with Carlton. Deborah listened with rapt attention.

  “Are you all right?” Deborah asked when Joanna fell silent. She leaned forward to peer more directly into Joanna’s eyes.

  “Better than I would have guessed,” Joanna admitted. “I feel a little shaky, I suppose, but all things considered, I’m doing okay.”

  “Then this calls for a celebration,” Deborah exclaimed. She stood up and bounced into the kitchen. “I’ve been saving that bottle of champagne cluttering up the fridge for months,” she called over her shoulder. “This is the time to open it.”

  “I suppose,” Joanna managed. She didn’t feel much like celebrating, but resisting Deborah’s enthusiasm would have taken too much effort.

  “All right!” Deborah exclaimed as she returned with the champagne in one hand and two flutes in the other. She knelt at the coffee table and attacked the bottle. The cork came away with a resounding pop and caromed off the ceiling. Deborah laughed but noticed that Joanna didn’t.

  “Are you sure you’re okay?” Deborah asked.

  “I have to say, it’s a big adjustment.”

  “That’s an understatement,” Deborah averred. “Knowing you as well as I do, it’s the equivalent of Saint Paul falling on the way to Damascus. You’ve been programmed by the Houston social scene toward marriage since you were nothing but a twinkle in your mother’s eye.”

  Joanna laughed despite herself.

  Deborah poured the champagne too quickly. Both glasses filled, mostly with fizz, and spilled out on the table. Undeterred, Deborah snatched up the flutes and handed one to Joanna. Then she made Joanna clink glasses with her.

  “Welcome to the twenty-first century social scene,” Deborah said.

  Both women lifted their stemware and tried to drink. They coughed on the foam and laughed. Not wanting to lose the moment, Deborah quickly took both glasses into the kitchen, rinsed them, and returned. This time she poured more carefully by letting the champagne run down the side of the glass. When they drank, it was mostly liquid.

  “Not the greatest bubbly,” Deborah admitted. “But it’s not surprising. David gave it to me way back when. Unfortunately he was a cheapskate from the word go.” Deborah had broken off a four-month relationship with her most recent boyfriend, David Curtis, the week before. In sharp contrast to Joanna’s, her longest relationship had been less than two years and that was way back in high school. In many ways the two women couldn’t have been more different. Instead of the affluent southern suburban social scene complete with debutante balls funded by oil money which Joanna had enjoyed, Deborah grew up in Manhattan with a bohemian single parent who was immersed in academia. Deborah had never known her father, since it was her imminent birth that had ended her parents’ relationship. Her mother hadn’t married until relatively late in life, after Deborah had left for college.

  “I’ve not been much of a champagne fan anyway,” Joanna said. “I actually wouldn’t even know if it were good stuff or not.” She twirled the glass in her fingers, momentarily mesmerized by the effervescence.

  “What happened to your ring?” Deborah asked, noticing for the first time that the jewelry was gone.

  “I gave it back,” Joanna said casually.

  Deborah shook her head. She was amazed. Joanna had loved the diamond and everything it stood for. She’d rarely taken it from her finger.

  “I�
��m serious about this,” Joanna said.

  “I’m getting that impression,” Deborah said. She was momentarily speechless.

  The phone shattered the short silence. Deborah stood up to get it.

  “It’s probably Carlton, but I don’t want to talk with him,” Joanna said.

  Over at the desk Deborah checked the caller ID screen. “You’re right, it’s Carlton.”

  “Let the answering machine get it,” Joanna said.

  Deborah returned to the coffee table and plopped herself back down. The two women eyed each other as the phone continued its insistent ring. After the fourth ring the answering machine picked up. There was silence while the outgoing message played. Then Carlton’s anxious voice along with a bit of static filled the ascetically decorated room.

  “You’re right, Joanna! Waiting until I finish my residency is a stupid idea.”

  “I never said it was a stupid idea,” Joanna interjected in a forced whisper as if the caller could hear.

  “And you know what?” Carlton continued. “Why don’t we go ahead and plan for this June. As I recall, you always said you wanted a June wedding. Well, June’s fine by me. Anyway, give me a call as soon as you get this message, and we can talk about it. Okay?”

  The answering machine made a few more mechanical sounds before the little red light on the front of the console began to blink.

  “That shows you how much he knows,” Joanna said. “There’s no way my mother could put together a proper Houston wedding in eight months.”

  “He sounds a little desperate,” Deborah said. “If you want to call him back and want some privacy, I can make myself scarce.”

  “I don’t want to talk with him,” Joanna said quickly. “Not now.”

  Deborah cocked her head to the side and studied her friend’s face. She wanted to be supportive but for the moment was confused how best to play that role.

  “This isn’t an argument he and I are having,” Joanna explained. “Nor is it some kind of lover’s game. I’m not trying to be manipulative, and frankly, I’d feel uncomfortable if we did get married now.”